The sky is unusually clear and full of stars in Riverside tonight. I was driving home with a wet face, underneath them, thinking about hope and hurt and God.
If I trusted God when i felt like it, I wouldn't trust Him as often as I'd like to admit. I wouldn't trust Him now. Why would I when my heart feels broken? Why would I when i feel a familiar sadness, the sadness of a very long dark night? I wouldn't trust Him, if trust relied on feelings. I rely on feelings far too often.
Trust in God relies on who God is. He never changes. He is always good and sovereign. If I choose trust over feelings, I will rely on the unchanging, always good nature and character of God. The Master of the Universe. The Maker of the Stars.
I can see those stars tonight. Most of the time I can't. That doesn't mean they disappear. They shine brightly whether I see them or not because the nature of stars is to shine.
The same is true of my God. He is worthy of my trust, always, whether I give it to Him or not.
